ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!!! That was my freakin reaction right now after watching UAAP Cheerdance Competition.
This isn’t about school spirit. But like WHAAAAT?
OK… UST SALINGGAWI. You’re still the best. :) Padamihan nalang ng trophy. ;)))
Whoever says that there is no serious consequence for every improper actions hasn't experience YET the price of valuable lesson that you can earn during the process.
Yes, as much as I wanted to undo things, wishing that there is a real recycle bin for our life, where in we can delete our wrong actions, I am currently undergoing the process of learning. Learning with no regrets (how I wish). I'm currently learning that paying the consequence is too costly--- even more costly than the simple pleasures you'll get from simple compromises. But I don't regret anything.
Simply because I know that the blueprint of my life is already complete. How can I regret knowing that the GREATEST ARTIST can turn every mess of my life into a MASTERPIECE.
Trusting. Believing. Hoping. This is what life's about. It's not really about doing things perfectly, but it's about the lessons that you will learn from our mistakes.
Moving on to the next level.....
Yes, as much as I wanted to undo things, wishing that there is a real recycle bin for our life, where in we can delete our wrong actions, I am currently undergoing the process of learning. Learning with no regrets (how I wish). I'm currently learning that paying the consequence is too costly--- even more costly than the simple pleasures you'll get from simple compromises. But I don't regret anything.
Simply because I know that the blueprint of my life is already complete. How can I regret knowing that the GREATEST ARTIST can turn every mess of my life into a MASTERPIECE.
Trusting. Believing. Hoping. This is what life's about. It's not really about doing things perfectly, but it's about the lessons that you will learn from our mistakes.
Moving on to the next level.....
It is!
I wish I have the freedom to just do what I think is right. Sometimes things doesn't go my way. I'm now in the verge of losing my senses. I just realize the price of compromise, and the fact that it's really costly.
I wish I'm as strong as you are. We're not in a competition. Sometimes I just wish that I'm half as strong as you are.
I want to believe that I'm the beneficiary of your obedience. The only thing that creeps me out is the fact that maybe you are not doing those things for me.
I wish I had a limited view. I'm currently wishing for something that will wipe out my memory no matter how traumatic it is, at least I'll think--- for a moment---- that you're not the one for me.
I wish I have the freedom to just do what I think is right. Sometimes things doesn't go my way. I'm now in the verge of losing my senses. I just realize the price of compromise, and the fact that it's really costly.
I wish I'm as strong as you are. We're not in a competition. Sometimes I just wish that I'm half as strong as you are.
I want to believe that I'm the beneficiary of your obedience. The only thing that creeps me out is the fact that maybe you are not doing those things for me.
I wish I had a limited view. I'm currently wishing for something that will wipe out my memory no matter how traumatic it is, at least I'll think--- for a moment---- that you're not the one for me.
Why?
I don't know! :) I was walking back and forth the office, laughing as hard as I could, since 2:00 pm. Then the name of a boy will be mentioned in the conversation. I was like.. "eeeeeeeh".. then "waaaaah". It goes on for like three or four times. Then I will shout "What the heck is going on!"
Then they will tell me "Ge, ayusin mo na yan!." :)
Suddenly our dear Kuya Daniel is in front of us. :) I don't know, but there's just something in his eyes that makes me smile this big ^_____^. Maliit kase mata nya. :) I really really love how he calls our office as the "Sauna". LOL.
Koreans. :) I love them. I love their humility. I love how they manage to work as organized as that. I was like "Tao ba kayo?" ang galing eh. And yet they're really HUMBLE. Yun kase yun. ;)
And oh! I'm really craving for Chicken ala King. :)
"New York, New York New York". Katamad. Iba naman. Now playing: The Only Exception. :D
I don't know! :) I was walking back and forth the office, laughing as hard as I could, since 2:00 pm. Then the name of a boy will be mentioned in the conversation. I was like.. "eeeeeeeh".. then "waaaaah". It goes on for like three or four times. Then I will shout "What the heck is going on!"
Then they will tell me "Ge, ayusin mo na yan!." :)
Suddenly our dear Kuya Daniel is in front of us. :) I don't know, but there's just something in his eyes that makes me smile this big ^_____^. Maliit kase mata nya. :) I really really love how he calls our office as the "Sauna". LOL.
Koreans. :) I love them. I love their humility. I love how they manage to work as organized as that. I was like "Tao ba kayo?" ang galing eh. And yet they're really HUMBLE. Yun kase yun. ;)
And oh! I'm really craving for Chicken ala King. :)
"New York, New York New York". Katamad. Iba naman. Now playing: The Only Exception. :D
I felt I'm being victimized by the moods of the people around me. If ever I will be in the position I'll see to it that I'll be as considerate to the feelings of the people around me especially my subordinates. I have no right to leave them hanging whatsoever. I will not blame them for all the mistakes that I did. I will never.. as in never make them do the responsibility that I'm supposed to be doing. Nobody has the right to do that to other people, or to any individual.
We are always responsible with our own feelings. We cannot always expect other people to understand everything. I'm surprised that to some people, the older they get, the more the issues they have in their lives, the more they blame other people, places, even inanimate objects for the bad feelings they're currently experiencing. This is a warning sign for me. As young as I am, I must learn to breathe, let go and forgive.
I don't want to grow up angry and mad. :)
If I'm offended, I must learn to respond and not to react.
If I'm mad, I must learn to confront gently.
If I'm really pissed off, (like what I'm feeling now!), I must learn to divert this emotion, write a blog like this as a breather, and then minutes from now I'll be OK. :))
I know I can get through this maturity issues. SO HELP ME GOD!
We are always responsible with our own feelings. We cannot always expect other people to understand everything. I'm surprised that to some people, the older they get, the more the issues they have in their lives, the more they blame other people, places, even inanimate objects for the bad feelings they're currently experiencing. This is a warning sign for me. As young as I am, I must learn to breathe, let go and forgive.
I don't want to grow up angry and mad. :)
If I'm offended, I must learn to respond and not to react.
If I'm mad, I must learn to confront gently.
If I'm really pissed off, (like what I'm feeling now!), I must learn to divert this emotion, write a blog like this as a breather, and then minutes from now I'll be OK. :))
I know I can get through this maturity issues. SO HELP ME GOD!
Oftentimes the anticipation itself is bigger than the real thing. I have learned in my previous journey the rule that must be written in the Ten Commandments, (in my opinion): "Thou shall not anticipate".
My mind is very creative, and it always produces imaginative situations that oddly happens in the way I'm expecting it. Should I stop imagining? Should I stop following this very logical way of thinking?
I'm mad at the person not because he has hurted me, but because of the anticipation that he will hurt me. Crazyyy ey?
This mindset must be fixed.
I'm in the verge of giving up, and not giving up. It's not true that I cannot express myself. I have lots of ways and lots of resources. People who know me personally can easily tell if I'm OK or not. Sometimes I just wish that my mind is not that creative. I'm through with all the paranoia and dramas close to that. Maybe I'm through with that awkward stage of my life where in I don't know exactly what I'm feeling.
Now I'm in the midst of trying to blurt out every possible emotion that I have. Little by little, every layers of that hardened controlled anger that led me to apathy were being exposed.
Funny how my Creator uses simple things to expose the truth behind the lies. It just started with a simple conversation over dinner when we're talking about a little boy named Samuel. He is a very sweet kid, but sometimes when he's not in the mood, he will do this crazy things that drives me nuts. One time, he has this crazy habit of telling people around him "Ayoko sayo!" (I don't like you). He did that to me twice or thrice. You will be surprised with my reaction. As a grown up woman, I must not be offended by that. I immediately responded, "Ayoko din sayo!" (I don't like you too.) Then I will walk away really pissed off.
Is it possible that through that situation I'm feeling a lil bit rejected? I just know if I'm offended with things because I cannot get over it just like that. One thing I know right now, if a person doesn't like me, I don't like that person also. Is it pride? Am I being rude? Does it work that way?
After dinner, I know I still have certain issues to settle with God. But I went to the treadmill machine instead. I tried to control my emotion once again thinking that the endorphins from exercising really hard can relieve the stress, but the harder I sweat, the deeper the pain that I'm feeling in my chest.
I almost destroyed the treadmill. >.<
Now I'm in the midst of trying to blurt out every possible emotion that I have. Little by little, every layers of that hardened controlled anger that led me to apathy were being exposed.
Funny how my Creator uses simple things to expose the truth behind the lies. It just started with a simple conversation over dinner when we're talking about a little boy named Samuel. He is a very sweet kid, but sometimes when he's not in the mood, he will do this crazy things that drives me nuts. One time, he has this crazy habit of telling people around him "Ayoko sayo!" (I don't like you). He did that to me twice or thrice. You will be surprised with my reaction. As a grown up woman, I must not be offended by that. I immediately responded, "Ayoko din sayo!" (I don't like you too.) Then I will walk away really pissed off.
Is it possible that through that situation I'm feeling a lil bit rejected? I just know if I'm offended with things because I cannot get over it just like that. One thing I know right now, if a person doesn't like me, I don't like that person also. Is it pride? Am I being rude? Does it work that way?
After dinner, I know I still have certain issues to settle with God. But I went to the treadmill machine instead. I tried to control my emotion once again thinking that the endorphins from exercising really hard can relieve the stress, but the harder I sweat, the deeper the pain that I'm feeling in my chest.
I almost destroyed the treadmill. >.<
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